7:07 PM
my most recent friday night was spent in the company of good friend cybill. we are old and boring (sorry cy:p)to the point that we skipped the club scene, but not old and boring enough to have spent it ignoring the call of "the friday" at home, so we reached a happy middle- tea and conversation at the nearest starbucks- i know, we're sooo thrilling like that :p
so go we did. we got semi dressed up (this means that we put on pretty dresses
with comfortable shoes), i picked her up and we were off.
i relish these "sessions" with friends that are capable of jumping topics- from the shallow to the deeply profound, nothing is exempt and taboo. topics range from secret sluts, high school classmates that we have not thought about for ages, dissections of our latest adventures, boys, boyfriends, relationships,hair, and the classic "what-are-we-gonna-do-with-our-lives"
this session was no exception. all of the above, and more, were covered over earl grey and mint, and a donut and a chocolate chip cookie, respectively. and as usual, this session has left me with lots to think about, which i will list so i can ponder with more organization later on:
1. i think i am open to the idea of going to school again,or educating myself more through work experience.
2. i may have reached a point of maturity wherein i may not mind putting myself in a difficult and challenging situation so that i will be able to learn more.
3. is it really true that i do not have bad girl/wild child inclinations? boo.
4.i am in the real world now, one where costs and other expenses need to be faced, and where loans are scary but necessary.
5. i am with a very very very good guy. (one that i horribly abuse, and might not even deserve:p)
6. i am a grown up. and that is scary.
it feels good to get these realizations, thoughts and whatnot out there. while acknowledging them may not automatically solve them, discussions about these concerns make them seem approachable, palpable and solvable. these are big steps, i know, and though i may have to tread on them carefully, i am assured that these sessions are little tip toes towards action.
i may have not solved anything big or realized something great on this particular friday night. but i am comforted that there will be more fridays, more cups of tea, more donuts and cookies and certainly good friends like cy for when i do.
Labels: conversations, fridays, friends, realizations, tea, thoughtful princess
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