8:56 AM
even though i seem to be stuck in this drab and blah existence post-boyfriend visit, I cannot be help but be grateful for the little doses of cheer ups that God sends my way.
yesterday, for example, after months of nameless existence in the capoiera world, i was finally baptized. i now have a capoiera name. although it wasn't the one that i was hoping for,i am at least grateful for the fact that it is a pretty one, and not one that is butch, haha! at some point, if i get good enough, it may even be interpreted as fierce :)
one of my other prayers has been answered, it seems. my search for employment (and moolah) has generated responses, it seems. and although i am not rolling in the big bucks yet, at least there seems to be a start of a little trickle that can begin to make up for the huge depletion of my bank account due to jason's visit. very slowly but surely, it looks that i will make it up.best of all, the work doesn't seem like work (yet) and i am still having fun doing it. I hope to land the big fish soon though..
the uphill process of getting over someone's leaving is a tough one, and is one that is never fully accomplished i think, as there is always a part of you that will miss and yearn for the one you love. i am grateful though for the little bit of healing that each day brings, and to family and activities that make me laugh and smile more everyday. mushy i know...
gotta love God for all the little things he sends my way
Labels: grateful, happiness, talking to myself
sam