hallelujah for the weekend

12:35 AM

OMG- i haven't had a weekend in so long. correction- i haven't felt a weekend in soo long. the past year of bumming has had the days pass in a blur, everyday seemed like a weekend, with nothing really pressing to do. there wasn't really time off to take off from time off :P but a week of work has changed all that- the weekend lives again.

all week tasks seemed to pile up so fast that there didn't seem to be time to catch a breath. my mind's gone rusty too, as have my fingers, and i have to live with the constant frustration that these 2 facts constantly give me!the lack of blog posts this week can also be attributed for the constant state of business and my painstaking slowness at work! aaahhhh when will i become faster, stronger and better?!?!

there's a lot less drama this week which i like, but a whole lotta work where i stink my nose at. the necesarry evils of life. i cried on thursday night, because i was spent with words and typing and forums and submitting, but i was a brave little soldier the rest of time. poor jason had to live through hell.sorry baby and i am eternally grateful for all the help this week, well to be more accurate, all the help you give EVERY single day!

i've lost my train of thought..oh well, here's to the weekend! 2 glorious days of fun, freedom, waking up late, lying in, long conversations, qt with my cutie, possibly a movie, pigging out and just being! HALLELUJAH!!!!

Labels: boyfriends and girlfriends, grateful, jason, talking to myself, the weekend

sam

little pockets of happiness

8:56 AM

even though i seem to be stuck in this drab and blah existence post-boyfriend visit, I cannot be help but be grateful for the little doses of cheer ups that God sends my way.

yesterday, for example, after months of nameless existence in the capoiera world, i was finally baptized. i now have a capoiera name. although it wasn't the one that i was hoping for,i am at least grateful for the fact that it is a pretty one, and not one that is butch, haha! at some point, if i get good enough, it may even be interpreted as fierce :)

one of my other prayers has been answered, it seems. my search for employment (and moolah) has generated responses, it seems. and although i am not rolling in the big bucks yet, at least there seems to be a start of a little trickle that can begin to make up for the huge depletion of my bank account due to jason's visit. very slowly but surely, it looks that i will make it up.best of all, the work doesn't seem like work (yet) and i am still having fun doing it. I hope to land the big fish soon though..

the uphill process of getting over someone's leaving is a tough one, and is one that is never fully accomplished i think, as there is always a part of you that will miss and yearn for the one you love. i am grateful though for the little bit of healing that each day brings, and to family and activities that make me laugh and smile more everyday. mushy i know...

gotta love God for all the little things he sends my way

Labels: grateful, happiness, talking to myself

sam