hallelujah for the weekend

12:35 AM

OMG- i haven't had a weekend in so long. correction- i haven't felt a weekend in soo long. the past year of bumming has had the days pass in a blur, everyday seemed like a weekend, with nothing really pressing to do. there wasn't really time off to take off from time off :P but a week of work has changed all that- the weekend lives again.

all week tasks seemed to pile up so fast that there didn't seem to be time to catch a breath. my mind's gone rusty too, as have my fingers, and i have to live with the constant frustration that these 2 facts constantly give me!the lack of blog posts this week can also be attributed for the constant state of business and my painstaking slowness at work! aaahhhh when will i become faster, stronger and better?!?!

there's a lot less drama this week which i like, but a whole lotta work where i stink my nose at. the necesarry evils of life. i cried on thursday night, because i was spent with words and typing and forums and submitting, but i was a brave little soldier the rest of time. poor jason had to live through hell.sorry baby and i am eternally grateful for all the help this week, well to be more accurate, all the help you give EVERY single day!

i've lost my train of thought..oh well, here's to the weekend! 2 glorious days of fun, freedom, waking up late, lying in, long conversations, qt with my cutie, possibly a movie, pigging out and just being! HALLELUJAH!!!!

Labels: boyfriends and girlfriends, grateful, jason, talking to myself, the weekend

sam

God signs

7:25 PM

Last night, after a sad conversation, I set my mind to break up with my boyfriend. Since he was sleeping, I decided to let him know in the morning. BUT then i thought and thought, and bounced back and forth, and then decided to let God decide. So i prayed, or rather asked for a sign. I said, "Please God, if i am meant to be with him, you will make him wear a white shirt tomorrow"

Why white you ask? No, i wasn't trying to take the easy way out. My boyfriend isn't really a typical boy when it comes to dressing. He does not have that classic no-fuss white shirt that all boys seem to have (well if he does I've never seen it). The wifebeaters that he wears around the house range from navy blue to black. I've given him white shirts before, as have my sisters, but he only seemed to don them to seem appreciative and so that we could see them, after that rarely have i seen him wear those again.


I woke up today to muffled sounds of a skype call. It was him, panicked if I had decided during the night to cut all ties. I turned on my video and he turned on his- WHITE. WHITE. The boy was wearing a white shirt, one with thin red stripes but still- WHITE.


I was not being very specific to God. I didn't really say a pure white shirt but just mentioned white. Majority of the relationship saving shirt is white. I guess this is a sign huh? God has a sense of humor too.


Oh, a minute later,I got a skype message, that sounded like a breakthrough and a possible solution to the sad conversation that Jason and I had the night before. God again? Hmmmmm..


And so, Jason and I are still together. Thanks God. I know I owe you more than one!


****


In other news, I'm sick! WAAAAHHHHH. If its not too much to ask the big guy up there... :D

Labels: baby, boyfriends and girlfriends, God, hmmm, jason, relationships, signs, thankful princess, white

sam

aren't stalkers creepy?

10:22 PM

so here we are, my boyfriend jason and i, enjoying a good day post fight, when suddenly
we come into discussion about adding his crazy ex( he said it, not me) on facebook. i am all for it-being the bigger person and all. he vehemently refuses- saying she's crazy and all. since its post fight, i get my way and add her up- again for bigger person sake, and the next thing that transpired was the freakiest/ most hilarious/ weirdest/ pathetic thing ever ! (depends on how you look at it i guess). i am documenting it for the fond memories and also in the event that if something mysteriously happens to jason, the world (at least the part of the world who reads my blog) can point their finger on a possible suspect.(maybe im the one who is

the next things i will post are the facebook wall comments that transpired between jason (my boyfriend) and amanda bottomley (the ex)

i would like to hear your thoughts on it. anyway, here goes nothing:

(23:25:54) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 7:18pmhello stranger! go into hiding did we? =P
(23:26:00) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 8:21pmYes i did...
(23:26:04) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 8:26pmawwww..why? you were fun when you werent a hermit!
so...gimme a little life story since the last time i saw you
(23:26:09) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 8:52pmI havn't been hiding, I have been working, uni and going overseas to the Philippines to see
my gf.
(23:26:14) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 9:15pmthat doesnt sound like much to have done in 2 years!
(23:26:19) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 9:42pmHuh?! I'm sorry, I didnt know I was required to report every single details that transpired in
my life in the past 2 year. I guess I've been too busy actually living life to report about it... My bad...
(23:26:25) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 9:46pmhad a bad day did we jase?
fine...go on not talking to me if you really want, see if i care =P
(23:26:29) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 9:50pmYeah... up until around 5:18pm...
(23:26:34) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 9:52pmit just went down hill from then... i wonder what happened?
(23:26:43) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 9:53pmhug?
(23:26:48) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:00pmcan i take a reincheck?
(23:26:53) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:07pmthat bad hey =( sorry to hear it
keep it for later, you can get more whenever you want..they're fun to give out
(23:26:58) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:10pmno, its ok, i get all that i need from my gf thanks :D
(23:27:03) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:17pmtrue..they're good for that =P
but so are friends (and exes that you dont hate)
(23:27:09) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:28pmyeah, you're right! you said it, not me­ "exes you don't hate" :D
(23:27:14) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:32pmyou hate me now?
(23:27:21) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:32pmi guess that'd explain why i never heard a word from you after we broke up...thanks for
explaining it..
(23:27:26) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:35pmhate is such a strong and hurtful word. i just repeated what you said! :D
(23:27:31) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:36pmso what then?
(23:27:36) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:38pmall this hostility and anger! i thought facebook was an avenue for friends :D
(23:27:41) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:40pmlol you know i dont get angry easily! maybe a tiny bit defensive at times...and its hard to
know exactly what people are thinking/feeling online
(23:27:47) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 10:40pmand isnt it funny how this' the ONLY avenue you've actually talked to me on in 2 yrs
(23:27:51) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:44pmmm funny? i dont think funny is the operative word. anyone looking at the amount of wall
posts might have better insights as to why communication between us dropped out...:D
(23:27:56) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 10:50pmthat's ok! you'll catch up sooner or later, it'll be enlightening! i promise!
(23:28:02) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 11:03pmlol dude, i've been wondering why the communcation dropped just after since we actually
broke up! then again, i can't say i do remember much about the end of the fling
(23:28:10) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 11:09pm thats ok! the two of us don't really have to go through that EXHAUSTING chore of
reminiscing and remembering. best of luck :)
(23:28:16) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 11:18pmso if the relationship didnt work the communication can never work..right­o jase
well i hope you're not as shitty as you were before. enjoy missing your girl. have a fun life.
(23:28:21) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 11:25pmI am having the funnest life! .. but then again, probably you would have known that by now
;) whoops! did I? little ole me slip out that you might have been stalking me? sorry... have a fun life
too! :D
(23:32:19) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Manda Bottomley (Australia) wrote
at 11:30pmi haven't, but you know i could quite easily.
(23:34:17) neurologik ­ Finding Forever: Jason Lagaac (no network) wrote
at 11:34pmYay! a direct quote as evidence in case I want to file a restraining order?! :D


.....hmmm sneaky stalker deleted the rest from her wall, but thats not all. here's the personal messages that went on too. (oooohhh)


manda to jason message 1: we didnt end on such a horrible note...why be such a bitch to me now?

jason's reply to manda 1:look, i have moved on and suddenly you try and come barging into my life in the rudest way possible. how do you expect me to react to emails about stalking threats?! has it occurred to you that I just wanted to be left alone? I've moved on and I hope you have too, why do you need a detail description about my life? Do you wanna make a comparison? You said it yourself that I was shitty. Now I dont think you need more shitty people in your life... isnt it just common sense?

I add you ontofacebook and I tried to be the bigger person and just accept it, andthen you attack my public wall? you expect me just to sit here and donothing?! give me a break...

manda's reply back: wow! dude!!
iadded you mainly just caus i wanted to say hi! i was bored, saw yourname and decided to add you. i was just interested in how you've beenand what you've been up to.
stalking? yeah..right! why on earthwould i even bother? you've obviously completely forgotten what i'mlike it you seriously think i would even consider ACTUALLY stalkinganyone..let alone you.

yes, i've moved on, but that doesnt stopme from wanting to say hi to some people from my past. i mustn't haveseen your attempts to say "manda..get lost" but thanks a lot for theblatant exclamation! i dont have anything against you, but apparentlythe feeling's not mutual..no one told me that before, but you didnthave to attack me!
if you really want, we can delete those posts and just go back to eachother's pasts.
10:42 PM
just in future, try not to take things out so much on people youhavent talked to in a while! they generally dont know what's happeningand dont expect things like this.

bye

jason's final reply: yeah, ok. so that explains all the weird emails and the rudeness on facebook. got it, thanks. bye.


-that's all i got (for now) sorry for the long rambling post, but it needed to be said. and before i go, can i just say: AREN'T STALKERS THE CREEPIEST???!!! Thoughts?

Labels: baby, creepy, jason, longest post ever, stalker

sam

a reminder to myself

9:16 PM

Thinking of dog names has forced my mind into overdrive. And although I've come to be very happy with the names that we settled on for the puppies ( Hershey, Lucky and Cocoa Chanel), my now name-awakened mind is refusing to rest and has resorted to thinking of cute names- cute human names. Hold your horses- having babies is not part of the immediate plan-yet but i think there really is no harm in being all girl-scout and ready (Also I'm scared that hours of excruciating labor will leave me exhausted and just plain cranky and my kids will end up with totally forgettable names like..*^&%&..let's not mention any lest we offend any..hehe :p)! And so everyone who reads this shall be my witnesses..please please please in the event that i have children, please remind me that I've picked out these names already so they can be put to good use and this post as well as the amount of time spent thinking beforehand is also not put to waste :) Here goes my list (With proper heading of course)

Pretty names for kids in the event that i end up with J.
-Second names not completely thought of yet
-names ma be combined with each other to make up first and second name

Annika James
Aidan Skye
Jiro something or something Jiro (maybe Benjamin..Ben for my dad)
Jordan something or vice-versa
Sophia Anouk
Anoushka
Taylor
Annielle


I've forgotten the rest.:p I know. I know. This is a cuckoo post and has to stop. And so it stops now. :)


P.S. One more thing: If i get a gold lab puppy, I wanna name him kernel (because corn kernels are gold!) heheh or Tink because Tinkerbell has gold hair! :)

Labels: crazy princess, cuckoo, jason, kids, names, reminder

sam

the bigger person...and shopper :)

7:20 PM

last night jason said, "someone has to be the bigger person". i fell asleep thinking about those words and woke up today thinking "yeah. i can do that.be the bigger person" so i did. well i hope what i did was bigger-personish. i wrote * a letter of sorts, sort of explaining my sudden disappearance from the universe. i was upfront, honest, direct, sincere and hopefully very bigger-personish. it felt good.no, it felt really really really good (insert huge smile here). i felt like a really good pedicurist cut away that annoying ingrown nail that just sits there, slightly annoying the hell out of me. i don't know what will happen next but i am content with what action i took. content and happy. again words of wisdom from my baby- "that's the reaction you need to get after writing an honest letter." so smart this baby, isn't this bigger person so lucky?! :p

after that, i went to sm with my sisters and dropped by sepa. i'd been itching to go for about a week now. we found some gorgeous vintage inspried necklaces. and that was when it happened. the bigger person morphed into the bigger shopper..and bought herself a fab necklace. (maybe as a self pat on the back for being the bigger person hehe :p)

and so after that, the self proclaimed bigger person went home, very happy and very content, albeit with a much much smaller wallet.

Labels: baby, bigger person, happy, happy princess, jason, necklace, sepa, shopping, shopping princess, thinking princess

sam