9:55 PM
Back in University, there was one statement that was repeated over and over in all 12 units of Philosophy- :It was "Lundagin mo beybeh!" My memory is hazy, but I believe it was coined by Father Bulatao, a Jesuit and famous Philosophy teacher back in the day in ADMU.
What Father Bulatao meant was that in undertaking any experience, say swimming, you may research all you want, read the books all you want, but you will never ever grasp what swimming is in all its entirety if you don't jump in that water! Hence, the birth of "lundagin mo beybeh".
"Lundagin mo beybeh" has been on my mind because I find myself in a much similar situation. For weeks, I've toyed with this idea in my head. It got bigger and bigger, driven by the endless possibilities I've encountered from online, from television, and from the newspaper.An opportunity presented itself. I thought, and rethought and overly thought. Asked myself if I could do it, if I had enough strength and gusto to actually push through with it.
Then it hit me. I can theorize, and analyze. I can educate myself with the million sources of information about it, but i will never know if i don't jump in. I won't know if i was cut out for it if i don't actually do it.
And so, coupled with the faith the God would not really give me anything that I wouldn't be able to handle, and the argument that if nothing else, I will walk away from this experience with well, experience and some battle scars that will make me a stronger person, I went ahead and did it.Armed with my squirmish but still present guts and a prayer, Lumundag ako- I lept...
And now, it's sink or swim.
Labels: leap, lessons, life, reflections, school, talking to myself
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