i don't know if i should say something

4:37 PM

...but its going to be n my mind anyway so i will.


i really don't like people who are pretentious. or people who are not real. i know it sounds cliche but i really really don't. pretending exhausts me, so i don't really make an effort to hang out with people for appearances sake you know. i've always been like that, so i've always just had a few really close friends, but i love the fact that it doesn't matter if i am in my yuckiest duster or in my prettiest gown, these friends will always see me the same way. how they look at me will not change based on the kind of bag that i bring, the car that i drive, the people that i hang out with.

walking around with someone with a pretty face has opened my eyes to how so many people really are. i don't want to sound condescending at all but this is something that i just need to let out. if i am offending anyone, i apologize. if you are with someone who is pretty or popular or cool,"mura bitw ka ug madala sa kahig". suddenly, people who used to ignore you say hello, you get offered free drinks, you become "friends" with all these new people who really want to be friends with that pretty face.

why? i don't know either. so they can be cool? or part of the in crowd? so they too will be noticed because of the pretty face they were with? so they can say that they too are friends with this guy or girl? ambot.

it makes me kind of sad actually.are people here that
shallow? is it just in the philippines? i was talking to my boyfriend about it and we both came to the conclusion that if we ended up together and had kids, we both would want to raise them in a place where people are valued for their individuality, where there is not much emphasis of pretty or popular. but the question is where??? i used to think people were ok here but i am having second thoughts now. hmmm maybe europe? or australia? people seem to be fine doing their own thing there.sigh. also, i wonder if these "lucky ones"- you know, the ones blessed with the beauty or that cool factor- see through all these people. do they know that people want to be friends because of the way they look? i wonder how it makes them feel?

i really just had to let this out. again, i don't mean to offend anyone.just thinking out loud i guess :(

Labels: deep princess, honestly, pretty, thinking aloud, thinking princess, thoughts

sam