breakdown

9:18 PM

sometimes things just don't work out.

Labels: talking to myself

sam

whatta day!!

2:23 PM

today, her royal highness, yours truly woke up amazingly early-5:30 am and went out into the world! i interviewed 2 people for a cover story, but not just 2 other people to the "showbiz" and the "die-hard"- i actually got to talk to heart and echo, (insert tee-hee here please", after that i had lunch with good friends and then got myself a good paying job!!!! wheeee! and its only 2:27! i better nap and see what else is in store..


i hafta say it! WHAT-TA DAY!!! :D

Labels: good day, happy princess, life, talking to myself

sam

5 Reasons Why I Should be Accepted As A Blogger /Writer a.k.a Hire Me Please!!!

5:06 PM

Disclaimer: For those of you who actually read my blog on a regular basis, No, I have not gone nuts. The following entry is an audition process of sorts to gain entry into the exclusive world of compensated online writing. I have been tasked to write an entry on the topic stated on the title. Even a vain bratty princess must pay her bills, and this is my futile attempt to get that rather unpleasant task accomplished. Nevertheless, enjoy and feel welcome to express your thoughts on the post, unadulterated praise, scathing remarks or otherwise! :p

I want to become a compensated writer. It is as simple as that! I want to be able to write and babble about any topic under the sun. I am well aware though, that writers need to possess certain qualities for them to become reliable and maybe, more importantly, hirable, and so, I have compiled my five reasons on why it would be a very excellent idea for anyone looking for a writer to take me on. They are, the following:

1.I have a wide variety of interests. I am not just saying this to sound interesting. I really do! I have delved into numerous sports including flag football, windsurfing, soccer or European football, badminton, swimming and basketball to name a few. I love to cook, bake and live for cooking shows and the lifestyle network. I am a voracious reading, consuming blogs especially about home design, fashion and mindless musings with sometimes lightning speed. I adore factoids and live for new bits of information, oftentimes turning to the news, the internet, the lifestyle network and even Oprah for them. Currently, I am obsessed over Capoiera, Boracay and room makeovers. I am also and forever will be interested in shopping, clothes, shoes, accessories and make-up! With all these running around my pretty little head, you can rest assured I will not run out of topics to write about!

2. I have strong opinions on absolutely everything! I say what I truly think and
feel, maybe stopping for a second to consider if I might be offending anyone,
then stopping for another second to consider the repercussions of what I’m writing and then going on ahead and writing what I truly think and feel anyway!

3.It may sound like I’m a little full of myself but I feel like I am a good mix and melting pot of various influences. I grew up with Asian values but with a Western mindset. I have had the privilege to be well-traveled but can conjure up a thousand ways to keep myself entertained on an afternoon at home. I managed to go to the best schools and have had a pretty comfortable life but have gone on countless medical missions as to not become blind to the reality of poverty and strife around me. With me, you will not only get balance, but substance too!


4. Friends can attest to this fact: I am obsessive-compulsive to the point of craziness. The bags, clothes and shoes in my closet are color coordinated. My Ipod is alphabetized, cross-referenced and free from a single writing or spelling error. I am never late for appointments, making it a point to be at the very least 5 minutes early. If hired, I can assure you I will approach writing the same way. I will submit articles on time, early even and make sure that the spelling and grammar be flawless.


5.Lastly, I’m a self indulged 23 year old girl trapped between the minds of an optimistic eighteen year old, a bratty five year old and very rarely a practical and insightful 48 year old. You never know what you’re going to get with me so it will be quite interesting second guessing what, or more importantly, how I’m going to write each new topic assigned to me.


In a nutshell, this is me: Interesting, opinionated, a mishmash, o.c and surprising. Qualities that may not exactly win me the woman of the year award, but qualities that make up one very good and entertaining writer!

Labels: 5 reasons to hire me, audition, compensated online writing, hire me, writing sample

sam

little pockets of happiness

8:56 AM

even though i seem to be stuck in this drab and blah existence post-boyfriend visit, I cannot be help but be grateful for the little doses of cheer ups that God sends my way.

yesterday, for example, after months of nameless existence in the capoiera world, i was finally baptized. i now have a capoiera name. although it wasn't the one that i was hoping for,i am at least grateful for the fact that it is a pretty one, and not one that is butch, haha! at some point, if i get good enough, it may even be interpreted as fierce :)

one of my other prayers has been answered, it seems. my search for employment (and moolah) has generated responses, it seems. and although i am not rolling in the big bucks yet, at least there seems to be a start of a little trickle that can begin to make up for the huge depletion of my bank account due to jason's visit. very slowly but surely, it looks that i will make it up.best of all, the work doesn't seem like work (yet) and i am still having fun doing it. I hope to land the big fish soon though..

the uphill process of getting over someone's leaving is a tough one, and is one that is never fully accomplished i think, as there is always a part of you that will miss and yearn for the one you love. i am grateful though for the little bit of healing that each day brings, and to family and activities that make me laugh and smile more everyday. mushy i know...

gotta love God for all the little things he sends my way

Labels: grateful, happiness, talking to myself

sam

reviewing (and revising) my options

7:48 AM

so jason has come and gone. and my once busy days, filled to the brim with bustling activity of what to eat, where to go and what to do are suddenly flat and empty. its cliche and seemingly sounds overly dramatic, but i feel like a part of myself got with him on the plane and all that is left is a former semblance of me- a lesser me. :(

i really don't want to go out and socialize just yet. the thought of seeing friends is a terrifying prospect as a feel like a puzzle piece that doesn't fit in the same way, one that maybe doesn't even fit at all. the last few weeks i've always been part of a package deal- that of my baby and myself, we were 2 halves of a whole, and one couldn't be found without the other. now what am i?

the thought of seeing couples is also enough to break my heart. i don't want to be bitter and hate them but i know that when i am around them, my heart will crumble a little and i won't be able to bring myself to be truly happy for them as a part of me will always protest with the unfairness of it all. i'm not ready yet.

and so i sit at home and ponder on the direction my life is going. my initial plans of going away to study, is, of the moment met with some detour. i don't want to pressure my dad now so i will have to scoop that dream up and keep it away momentarily, or at least when i can afford to take it out.

the brokenhearted, abandoned and dreamless wake up to reality, and that is no less true for this princess. i'm awake. and scrambling. i know what i want- to be with jason this may and to find a way to keep busy until he permanently comes back.i want some sort of financial independence and stability that doesn't come from my parents. i want work that doesn't chain me to a desk all day, a kind that is flexible. i want work that pays well enough to take me down under and wherever my feet want to trek on.

the other day i started looking with a frenzy. i fervently hope that those that i've stumbled upon do not turn out to be duds.

i'm awake now, and scrambling to get all my dreams back, and in the process, get the rest of myself back too.

Labels: reality, sad princess, talking to myself

sam

boracay

11:13 PM

cybill, kevin, my baby and i are off to boracay tomorrow for some much needed rest and relaxation. it is also a last hurrah of sorts for jason and i before he heads back to oz. im excited to tan, to skim, to confidently (?!) strut around in a bikini, to eat out and to just relax.... expect a bajillion pictures when i get back. :D

peace, love and the beach xoxoxoxoxo

Labels: boracay, vacation

sam